I Started Taking Steroids Because I Noticed That A Nice Body Gets The Chicks.

"In high school I noticed that a nice body gets the chicks. Girls would chatter about so and so’s body and all I could do was listen. I was 17. I started lifting seriously since I was 16. I had tried every supplement on the market. I have seen them come and go, spending monthly about $100. it would be a weight gainer with some new supplement. OKG-nothing, Creatine-5lbs of water which would leave after discontinuing, vanadyl sulfate- nothing, prohormones- nothing. I even megadosed the prohormones realizing only a small percent would actually convert to testosterone.

I left high school 155lbs. I went to college and there I felt even smaller, but I wasn’t the only small guy. After the first year of stuffing my face eating 5-6 times a day, napping 2 times during the day to slow down my metabolism, and lifting heavy, I gained 10lbs. The scale would sometimes move up 3lbs, but after taking a dump it would be gone. I would weigh myself every time, and 1 or 2 lbs would make me feel good.

Progress is the only thing that keeps you going to the gym, that’s why most of my training partners would quit. I now realize 2 lbs could be food and/or water. I learned to train alone and self motivate myself. I saw a couple of guys in my gym grow past me. And frustration built up. I didn’t want to try steroids because I knew I was young. I didn’t want to risk my growth in height. So I waited. My friend who had juiced before said he could get me some. I did lots of research on the internet, but most of it was just some personal comments, like how dangerous testosterone was and how safe deca was. My friend had some big guns, and told me he was really skinny before. He also pointed out that naturally I may gain maybe 5 lbs a year at most. So to get from 165 to 185 it would take me 4 years, or get it done with a cycle now. He was right.

I was now 19 and bought a bottle of 10ml Brovel T200 (underdosed), and also thought that a cycle was a Bottle. Deca and Equipoise were almost triple the price since they were 'safe' steroids. I got my pins and used it for 5 weeks, in pyramid form, 1cc, 1.5cc, 2cc, 1.5cc, 1.5cc. what a waste! I ate clean thinking I was going to hold water. I ended up staying the same weight. (Pyramid cycling is also a waste). I then realized I needed more. 200mg a week wasn’t going to cut it. I then planned on getting more, but didn’t.

I then started studying steroids in a clinical/medical manner. I then got good opportunities on getting gear, cheap. I then started the new fad of the 2 weeks on 4 off with clomid. 500mg of test enanthate on day 1, some prop throughout and 30mg dbol daily. 20 lbs in 2 weeks. I’d drop 5lbs and go back on to gain 10lbs. after 3 two-week cycles, up and down in weight, I was now 188 at 20. I looked thicker. My muscles and my skin. People noticed me. A mistake I did once was to incorporate deca in one and Equipoise in another, since they were long acting, the cycle ended up being one long cycle instead of two. My weight would not advance since by the time I was putting on the lbs, I was stopping the cycle. I also then started feeling the roller coaster effect on my body.

I switched to longer cycles of 6-8 weeks. Most looked like so: 250-750mg test enanth/Prop/wk, (200-300mg deca or Eq/wk) and 20-30mg dbol/day first 5 weeks. Usually a total of 600-1000mg/wk of hormones. Problems now were that since everyone is used to seeing you heavy, when you go off and drop 8-10lbs they ask ‘what happened? You got sick’ and you have to fend it off with the flu or you got amebiasis. Psychologically its difficult because of the comments. You must accept that you are going to be bigger and smaller. Just as they adjusted to you growing, they will adjust to you shrinking. You must have your goal clear in your mind. There will always be someone there to put you down. Tough part is, not answering their smart remarks in your head with 'wait until my next cycle!' that is a trap you are putting yourself into, making steroids the answer.

After several different combinations and 'tests', I learned how my body reacted to each one. I once did only dbol for 3 weeks at 45mg with a 5lb gain, which meant It wouldn’t work unless stacked, (only to first time users). I reacted faster to test.prop as its halflife was shorter than Test.enanthate, and my libido goes through the roof. Sustanon I don’t like, unless its for hormone replacement therapy. Deca, my worst enemy, worked well for bulking, but at the end of the cycle, the test.enanthate would be eliminated, and deca would still be lingering. Several times I didn’t know how to explain to a girl why I couldn’t get it up. They would feel unattractive, but they didn’t realize my d*ck was desensitized from the low test levels and left over deca. I later found that nandralone phenylpropionate works well without this effect as it clears faster out of your system.

Equipoise worked well, but it gave me strains in my ligaments. It felt like the muscle was too strong for the ligament, making it uncomfortable around the 5th week. I once stacked it with dbol and didn’t get great gains. Equipoise also helped me maintain a leaner look, with less bloat and less gut, even after massive eating, as it increased my appetite. Dbol seems to pack on the size like nothing else. The size included water, but more water also meant more strength, more strength more weights, more weights more muscle. When I used dbol, I always prepared myself knowing I would lose a good amount to water, so psychologically you don’t feel like you are going backwards. Hair loss was the biggest drawback, and now I have banned dbol from my body, (some people aren’t even affected).

As for testosterone, it is the gold standard. Every stack had to have test. You must replace what you are shutting down. I will never cycle without some test, always incorporated, even in small amounts. Test packs on the size. Deca and Eq cannot compare. They are considered ‘extras.’ Deca and Eq are always more expensive, but end up giving you half the gains at most. Anadrol made me stronger with some decent gains, but gave me headaches at 100mg/day, with 75mg tolerable. When compared to dbol mg to mg, dbol outweighed the drol. Ive tried winstrol in tablets and inj. @ 25-50mg/day. It works great, like Eq, but couldn’t bench after 3 weeks, as it affect my elbows. Some deca counters that effect, or I just reduced the dosage.

My best stack was test.prop and dbol. After experimenting with several cycles and stacks, I could not avoid shut down and the depressed testosterone post cycle, even with clomid and arimidex. These help at making it go by faster, making recovery last 3 weeks. But still, its 8 weeks of glory and 3 weeks of hell. And what seems strange is that I always meet a girl during those 3 weeks of hell. LOL.

So after a couple of years I bulked up to 210lbs. Some muscles grew bigger than others, and I worked hard to get proportionate. Your muscle bellies and everyone elses have different shapes and lengths. A bicep peak cannot be built, only refined. After gaining 30-40 lbs of muscle, you realize your defects and work on them. You’d assume that if you got 10-15lbs off of every cycle, in 5 years you would be mr.olympia. it doesn’t work that way. Every time you go off, you body returns to a comfortable weight. You have discontinued the overdose of hormones, and these androgens keep the muscles there. In order to maintain the muscle mass, you must maintain the androgen levels high. When discontinued, and your natural levels of testosterone regress (around 200mg/wk), your muscles reflect this. What determines your ‘comfortable’ size is your genetics.

Some say they keep 80% of their gains. Well, those reports are usually 4 weeks out of their cycle. Ask them 8months later and it wont be the same (unless its their first cycle). Those who started at 200lbs solid will have more success. What's sad is that some people start juicing too early (17-18) and they were going to be big anyways. Its all in your genes. My parents are slender, I have less luck. I now focus on my career as a doctor. I focus on my success. A great body aids in success. I feel it reflects my hard work and dedication. But now, its not everything.

At my heaviest, girls were actually intimidated. Their thoughts of my muscles perceived that I was cocky and arrogant. To some I would be hot, but most of those who threw themselves on me weren’t all that attractive. You haven’t said a word, and the girl already thinks that you are the typical narcissistic muscle head. Even worse, insecure girls don’t even prefer guys that way, as there is more risk. Risk of cheating on them since you both know you look good and have girls hitting on you. After probing several girls, the body doesn’t matter too much to them. 'Some muscle is good' is all they say. Everyone has different preferences but nothing in excess is good, like FFF implanted breasts!

Steroids help you get past your genetic limit, and you’ll need them to stay there. Be pleased with how you are, and accept you can't be superman everyday. Workout to please yourself, not others, but don’t obsess. There will always be someone bigger than you. There are several consequences from using and most come from prolonged use. That prostate cancer that you don’t know that you have will grow earlier. Those max-lift heavy lifts year after year may affect your joints later. Steroids are a drug to give you an edge. Do I regret using… not one bit. Get what you want out of it, and don’t make it a ‘got to have’ habit. I now prefer to be under 200lbs and lean. I have other things to worry about, aside from eating that 6th meal!"