I Started Taking Muscle Building Steroids Because I wanted Power

"What got me interested and want to enter the 'dark side' of anabolic steroid use? In a word: 'Power'. In one way or another all males lust or seek after that which will make them powerful. Some guys do it through Politics, Money, Sports, etc, etc. Deep inside every guy there is this need to win, for lack of a better description, to be 'the best'. This is exactly what got me started in using steroids.

I started my first cycle with Primobolan and dbol. I trained like an animal on my first cycle. Along with the many side effects of steroid use, there comes many good effects. The best way for me to describe the feeling of my first cycle was that of being 'in the zone' like nothing could stop me. It's amazing what taking 2 drugs will do for your confidence.

Have said that, I must also share the bad effects I also experienced to properly present to you my experience. Depression is one side effect which I went through near the end of my cycle. This was very dangerous because depression leads to negative thoughts which can turn your whole life into a mess. Without thinking about it, I decided I must continue with another cycle. The first cycle lasted 8 weeks.

My next cycle consisted of Winstrol and Equipiose. As with any drug, addiction is a problem and is very hard to come off. For me this proved to be all too true as I now entered my 2nd cycle. I started going to the gym 2x a day/5 days a week. I didn't have any time for my friends, and just blew them off. I also noticed I had no patience or ability to sit down calmly and rationally think. My girlfriend and I got into frequent fights as she wanted me to listen to her problems, when I was going through too many of my own. This eventually led to our nasty breakup which was the direct result of my steroid use. By the End of my 2nd cycle, I had stopped using for about 1 week. I didn't tell anybody what I was doing, but it clearly had an impact of my relationship with people.

I can't tell you how hard it was to decide to quit taking steroids. After 2 cycles, you will become addicted like any other drug. I had no choice but to force myself to stop using or everything else in my life would be taking a back-seat, which I had done for the past 5 months.

I have been clean for about 6 months now and look back on my experience as a learning one. It gave me a better understanding of why and how so many people start using drugs and what it does to their personal relationships and mentality. I am not advocating or telling anyone they shouldn't do anything. Everybody has to make their own personal choices in life. Just fully realize the consequences of your actions, and there is a price to pay with anything."