I Took Injectable hGH (.3 IU, Twice A Day) And 100 mg Of Testosterone Cream Twice A Day.

"I can't believe I am doing steroids. I have only known one person to take them for certain. He was my roommate while we went to school together. His car was blocking the drive way and I needed to move it, and when I got in his desk drawer I found some Winstrol, Deca-Durabolin and HCG. He had been pretty well built and lifted weights regularly and had a fairly substantial bench (300+). I asked him about it and he told me he was not proud of it, but started taking them in high school and was more mentally addicted to them than anything else. He said he could lay in bed at night and feel himself grow and what a great feeling that was. he said he felt almost invulnerable. This made me want to take them, but I decided not to. he told me about a huge friend of his and how his testes shrunk up and that kind of scared me.

I recieved my college degree in nutrition and then later a degree as a Chiropractor. So 'natural' health care was my profession. I exercised quite a bit, but mostly endurance type activities so was always rather thin. Of course I wanted to be big, but not enough to jeopardize my health. Around 1994 I got sick. Nobody could really determine why. After that I got shingles on my face. From that point on I had chronic fatigue. I mean really really fatigued. I also fell into a deep depression. Then in 1997 some back injuries flared up and I went to a MD, and had an MRI done. They found some disc problems and 'moderately severe degenerative arthritis'. They recommended disability. The only thing that really seemed to drive me was making money. It was a good feeling. My chiropractic business was really profitable (most aren't and I do not recommend it as a profession). And here I was facing a life of watching Gilligan's Island reruns all day. I had an area of total numbness over my left leg (which when it gets tired kind of drags) and severe back pain.

I sold my Chiropractic business to focus on nutrition, because adjusting people was very hard on my back. With nutritional counseling I could just sit there all day. Since I was no longer adjusting people all day, bending over and jumping up and down on their spines, my back did begin to feel better. But still there were days of pain. No sciatica (pain down the leg) anymore, but often left sided back pain.

This year (2000) an old friend of mine was really psyched about doing some steroids, and shared with me a book on how to do steroids. It got me really psyched too. Also I was hitting a middle aged crisis thing and wanted to feel young again. I picked up some other books about hGH (human growth hormone) and growing young/antiaging. It sounded very exiting.

I got on the internet and found sources of testosterone and hGH. But the fact that these sources are borderline legal scared me. I still earn my income with a state issued professional license and a felony charge would prohibit me from ever working again. Luckily there was a board certified anti-aging doctor in town, who use to compete in body building and was featured all the time in Joe Weiders muscle and fitness decades ago. I went to them and described my fatigue, depression etc. This doc ran a bunch of tests : testosterone, IGF-1, DHEA, chem panels etc. It would have cost a fortune except I used my own lab account through Smith Kline Beecham and they give me a huge discount. I came back very low in IGF-1 (60) and low in testosterone. I have to admit I was shocked. I take a bunch of vitamins daily. I began taking some growth hormone secretogogues (amino acid precursers) and my IGF-1 doubled and went to about 130. This was a significant increase but this doc wanted my IGF-1 levels to be around 300. Something is wrong with my pituitary not to produce enough IGF-1 naturally.

This doctor asked me if I had ever taken steroids (to which the answer was NO). According to my medical doc it is real common to see abnormally low levels of IGF-1 and testosterone in people who used to take synthetic steroids - these artificial drugs, when taken by people who do not need them to be healthy (but take them for body building purposes) screw up their feedback mechanisms and can cause permenantly messed up hormone levels.

So this doc put me on small physiologic levels of injectible hGH (.3 IU, twice a day) and 100 mg of testosterone cream twice a day. Right away I thought I felt something, but wanted to be cautious in my exitement so atributed a good bit of it to placebo and expectation. The third night my sleep kept getting interrupted all night long. Typically this would leave me wasted and when I got interrupted typically I would lose my temper severely. But instead I was very calm, it was no big deal and the next day was feeling strong. It was not until later than evening that it dawned on me what a difference this was. At that point I really believed something was happening. Next I noticed my fingers felt puffy and stiff....not painful mind you just sort of puffy. And my knees felt puffier. And then my back pain was completely gone. I think this is due to water retention in the joints and intervertebral discs. But it is hard to believe. I have had this pain constantly for many years.

I have also put on about 10 LBS, and it does not seem to be fat. I had my fat percentage tested prior to beginning the therapy and have not been retested so I cannot say for sure. I was lifting weights prior to therapy, for about an hour at a stretch. Currently while on the therapy I am only lifting 1/2 hour 3 times a week. But my bench press has gone up about 75 LBS. I can actually squat heavy weights deeply now, something I never really was able to do, and most certainly not since the MRI.

I have been on the therapy about 10 weeks. I cycled off the hGH last week and just began taking it again. I will cycle off the testosterone next week. They are slightly staggered so that the hGH acts as a bridge when going off the test, and works as an anti-catabolic. There are weeks when I am on both. I am kind of scared to go off the test. I have had so much energy and for the first time in many many many years I have not felt depression. Just prior to the therapy beginning I was in one of the worst depressive periods I have ever experienced. Really feeling hopeless. As soon as I was on the therapy I felt happy for the first time I can remember for many years. And my happiness was not based on any outside thing. For a decade or so prior to the therapy it was always something that made me happy. Making money or selling my practice for lots of money usually. This is the first time I can remember in a very long time just feeling happy for no real reason. I have reduced the amount of daily testosterone and already seem to feel less energy and perhaps a bit down.

I cannot vouch for what it is like to take super physiologic levels of steroids, but am certain that having these hormones at the upper end of the physiologic ranges is a great thing. My sex life improved, my mood improved, I have some muscle, I feel strong, I feel more confident. But I can certainly see how mentally addicting these are. I can see what my roomate of many years ago was going through. Its no fun to leave the realm of roids...even temporarily. I am not taking the levels frequently taken by athletes (I hear stories of 4 IU daily, and getting their blood levels of free testosterone up to 4,000), but have become sold on the idea that they can be very helpful.

Now that my back pain is gone I am considering going back into Chiropractic practice. For me its been a good thing."

   
   
   
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